"let your boat of life be light, packed with only
what you need - a homely home and simple pleasures, someone to love and someone to love you,
enough to eat and enough to wear
and a little more than enough to drink:
for thirst is a dangerous thing"

Monday, 23 April 2012

the mag 114

I have heard that drowning, in the sea, is one of the best ways to die
I am not sure who has confirmed this, or how they know this stuff
but this is what they say
Apparently it is in the way your body bobs up and down in the ocean and you
get so tired but you still keep floating up to the surface 
for another breath
Eventually, you become so tired that taking breaths becomes difficult and waves keep washing over you, hypnotising you
You breathe sea water into your lungs
and they fill up until there is no room for air
only sea water 
So you pass out 
and sink 
to the bottom of the ocean

I dragged my empty fish tank to the bottom of the garden
and filled it with water
I removed my clothes, stepped carefully into the tank, lay back, held my breath
and my nose and submerged my body in the icy water
This fish tank was now my coffin 
but there was not much space to bob up and down, 
in a coffin
and holding my breath was difficult in such a confined space
because as I kept rising to the surface it became impossible to keep my mouth closed, so I opened it
and gasped new, cold air into my lungs
and my head felt light
and it felt wonderful to breathe again

I remembered those games I used to play with friends, when we were young,
to see who could hold their breath underwater,
for the longest time
Your lungs got stronger and eventually you all got pretty good at
staying under water, for the longest time

This game I was playing today, alone
was not as much fun as those I played, with friends
in those carefree days of long, hot summers
with brown bodies and sun bleached hair

What was I trying to do anyway?

It is pretty cold being wet and alone at the bottom of the garden
so I make my way back to the house,
make a big mug of hot, sweet tea and take a long, hot shower
I try hard to stop myself thinking about death and dying
It is time to stop wondering what it will feel like when death happens
and remember how good it feels when the new
fresh air flows into your lungs
and you feel light headed and the colours of the trees are beautiful
and the sky is blue

How can there ever be a best way to die?

Weekly inspirational prompt from The Mag
Thanks Tess


  1. Very thought-provoking. When you reach our age, you certainly do think about that more, don't you?

  2. def though provoking...i would not want to drown as i imagine there is a lot of desperation in it...and i would much rather focus on life, for sure...

  3. This one really caught me, Jenny. Just carried me along to a great end.
    Loved it.


  4. Why practice something you have to do right the first time. I am thinking of parachuting and dying as examples. Frankly this photo brought me down.

  5. loved this piece..makes you think a lot......def going swimming with the whales sounds far better than some other alternatives!!!......but i am slightly with goatman..i found it a bit depressing as a photo..x

  6. there has been a lot in the south african press lately about teenage children taking their lives in suffocation ways. be it in a "cult" kind of way or just teenage "inquizative ways". it is something that parents need to know about.